I love my job!

I just wanted to say that I am sooo at work right now and I have spent my time thus far looking up study abroad info (new plan by the way- university of london, queen mary. still dunno bout deutschland though.) and surfing the web. so much for being stressed about life! and they already have the schedule made up, and i'm not gonna have to work any weekends this quarter! yayyy. anyway they have one of those weird split in half keyboards andits hard for me to use because i type with only four fingers so I'm gonna peace out.

This week has been an emotional free-for-all-anarchy-merry-go-round-bipolar fiesta, as I'm sure you have noticed. I'm so glad it's Friday.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.

This is getting hard. I have more homework than I can finish each night. Even physics has turned out to be more difficult than expected and I just spent two hours working on it and I'm still not done. The idea of german gives me anxiety because not only do I not ever know what my homework is, I missed my first discussion today which will affect my grade and put me even farther behind.

Today I got trained for my new job. Information overload, not surprising but still stressful. I am actually already scheduled to work tomorrow. Luckily I have so many other things to worry about that being nervous is out of the question.

I am also going to a meeting to get started on the study abroad process tomorrow. That's pretty exciting and also pretty scary. Anyway. after i finish going to class and going to that meeting and going to my first day of work, I get to come home to the rest of my physics homwork. yay friday... after that I will be in need of some serious... i don't even know what.

Anyway the point of all this is to say that I am very overwhelmed with everything, and I guess I am overreacting but I can't help it. I feel really bad right now. :(

Yours truly,
Mandy

Fickleness

I wrote this yesterday in between classes:

The reason I like college today is that I just got out of my American Lit class in which I made friends with a relatively cute bo yof the same major and was able to hate on a bush hater and am now sitting outside a coffee shop surrounded by people older than myself eating an apple turnover and writing about why I love my life. I have spent the last week and a half sitting on the beach, sleeping in, eating mexican, and talking about poetry. I have a job in the library. I barely care at all whether or not I have a boyfriend. I plan to study in London all of next year. My jacket is greenish borwn and matches everything.

Ok, cancel all that. I just dripped coffee on my jeans.

wednesday musings

I have been a BUM today. Three hour nap, two large meals, lit reading on the couch. I have let another day go by without going to the gym, so I am probably going to punich myself by going tomorrow morning after my 8 AM section, if i manage to drag myselfout of bed that is. But the homework is already filling up my time, and I haven't even begun working yet. Oh dear, somehow I think the whole gym thing might get lost in all that.

I found a nice video of Sufjan on youtube, here is the link if you are in the mood for something beautiful.

I don't like the phrase "hump day." It makes it seem like we just spend our lives waiting. Even though it may be true, I try my best not to think that way. I once told my mom that I couldn't wait till I was such and such age, and she told me not to wish my life away. I thought that was rather wise.

Another word I would like to use more often is: clandestine.

playa hating

Things I wish I were:
- musician
- poet
- physicist

Words I wish I used more:
- surrepticiously
- unkempt

Things I wish I could do:
- spell. no, cancel that. it makes me feel like one of those absent-minded professor types.
- surf. girls who surf are so much better than girls who sit on the sand.

A pet peeve:

Don't you hate it when someone you don't like is really into a band that you're also really into? Ugh, it totally ruins it so much. Or maybe it's just me.

p.s.

the new naked juice is divine.

the new "Your Ex-Lover Is Dead"

dude, i love joanna newsom so so much. even ask anu.

I do as I please
Now I'm on my knees
Your skin is something that I stir into my tea
And I am watching you
and you are starry, starry, starry
and I'm tumbling down, and I check a frown
It's why I love this town
Well, just look around
just see me serenaded hourly and celebrated sourly
and dedicated dourly; waltzing with the open sea
clam, crap, cockle, cowrie
will you just look at me?

I don't even really know what she means by it, but it's lovely.

the years have seemed short, but the days were long

In short, this has been a good weekend. On friday I went to see the last kiss with yasha and sarah. It was pretty alright, but kind of strange. Anyway, it was a movie, and I devoured many sourpatch kids during it.

Yesterday afternoon we went to the beach, duh. But check out this awesome rock we sat on! How picturesque can you get, honestly, it was like a joke.



The whole beach is gorgeous. Sometimes I take it for granted, other times it makes me feel guilty.



Anyway at night we went to this place called Yogurt Mill. We ordered a child size cup, which should have been like, about 3 inches tall. but they were about to close and I guess hadto get rid of it all, so for the same price we got THIS:



all I have to say about that is, God bless America.

After throwing away most of our Yogurt, we went to this cool place on a hill where you can see the entire city and the lights reflecting on the harbor. It's amazing, and I'm sorry that I didn't take a picture, but I'm sure I'll go back.

Today was pretty tight as well. Anu and yasha cooked Indian food for us. Lots of indian food! Chicken curry, rice, some garbanzo bean thing which i already forgot the name of, and some yogut/cucumber thing which I also forgot the name of. And we even had watermelon for desert! It was so cute. Like, our whole table was covered in food. I felt like saying grace or something. I would post a picture of that too, but it would take too long seeing as it's on Anu's camera at the moment. Maybe later, if I still care.

Sincerely,
Mandycurry

I GOT THE JOB!

I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!


yessssss.

Thank goodness, I need the money. paper back books should NEVER cost 65 dollars. never.

Is this normal?

I am so so so confused about what I want to learn in college. This is my main goal: to learn what everyone else thinks about everything, and then to tell people what I think about something. In a more concrete sense, I want to go to school for an absurdly long time, become a college professor to make money, and then hopefully write something someday that changes something. The first part of the goal (learning what everyone thinks about everything) is unrealistic, thus, the dilema.

My immediate problem is how to pick the major(s) that teach me the largest possible quantity of ideas that exists in the world, including but not limited to, religion, philosophy, politics, art, music, science, history, linguistics, etc, etc, etc.

I think for now I am going to stick with Literature. But I am torn about my second major. And I am torn about whether or not it is pathetic to hide in philosophicalness, and whether I should force myself to deal more with reality.

Advice please?

Also, I am a huge dumbass for not buying my textbooks sooner, because now all the used ones are sold out at the library. Not that I have enough money in my account for them anyway. Gaaaahhhh stress.

But other than that today was good, classes seem fine, I love being back at school, and only 18 more days till Sufjan!!!!!

huh?

dude I have class tomorrow... what the hell. I would normally be nervous but this year, I'm just like, what? class? what time? huh?
I guess I just have to bring a notebook and a pen and show up, right?

I finally got new tape to put my posters up and they seem to be actually sticking now. So, I suppose I will post pictures soon for those of you who want to see where I live now. If I can get my camera to work, that is.

Oh and I changed my settings so that people without blogger accounts (like you, Anu) can leave me comments. Do it.

oh and p.s. I have a job interview tomorrow to work in the library!!!!! UUUUUUUUgh i hope i get it so muchhhhh. wish me luck. I hate getting yobs. it's hard.

woah!

Josh came to visit today! What a pleasant surprise. He thinks this gets him out of having to come to fall fest, but he is mistaken.

Seymour is happy to be back in SD, i can tell. He swims more here. He hasn't said so, but I have a feeling he misses Sid.

Tonight we got followed around by a very very strange freshman. He was possibly the most socially awkward guy I've ever had the privelege to have known. Top 5, at least. At first I was annoyed but he quickly grew on me, and I noticed that through the course of the evening he got considerably normaler. I was so proud. But he kept looking at his watch and asking why people were out this late (this was like at 10). It was kind of cute.

Anu is back form hanging out with her indian friends, yay!

Cat calls

Hey you.

I'd like to eat some asparagus and ham with you on the beach.

Yeah, you.

I'd like to put a muffin on your stomach.

Yeah, I'm lookin at you.

Yeah, I'd like to put some mustard on your thighs.

After that? Umm I dunno, maybe go see a movie? OVT?

Fate as mallebale as clay

I am sooo naked right now. Except for my bathrobe. But that's beside the point. The point is, that I am loving the new school year. Lats night, we wandered over to the all-campus dance, and marveled at the level of drunkeness observed. It was like, close to sungod status, seriously. We, however, were not drunk and thus were not having much fun. So we went to see Jake, who had just arrived, and soon practically all of former H house was there- the nichols brothers, ryan, alex, meg, becca, phil, chris chen, narek, random shady armenians, and even the midge showed up. It was pretty schweet.

Today us girls went to the beach for a couple hours. The weather has been AMAZING and that pleases me. Anu and I swam in the crazy waves and didn't get too pummeled this time.

Tomorrow eric and greg are having a party at 1 PM. How silly. I am so there.

I have no idea what I'm doing tonight tough. Hopefully it will involve fun and not the opposite thereof.

Regards,
Mandy

yayyy roommate!

So, here i am in my new room, watching Anu unpack. Last night was pretty boring. Sarah was out with her family all night and Charlene went to bed early, and I wasn't feeling social enough to wander around by myself so I stayed in my room and moved furniture around for no reason. I am glad that Anu is here now to keep me from doing silly things like that.

The internet isn't working yet, so I am using some wireless network called "Apple Network." Thank you, ower of apple network. But they will probably set it up with a password soon so I will have to figure out my ethernet situation.

Anyway, so far being a sophmore is way better than being a freshman. You don't feel compelled to go to horrible events like "club muir" (more like club awkward), and are relatively ok with things like staying in your room and moving furniture. And, you get to live in the sweet sweet apartments. My window is in prime position for spying on passers by. And I love spying!

I will put up pictures when I finish getting settled in. Speaking of which, I am going to the store now.

Love,
Mandy

There will be noise, there will be glad, and the perfect bed.

Ok so, I'm pretty sure I'm actually going to use this blog. I hate the way livejounal looks. It stresses me out and confuses me; also this blog has a better title and url, thanks to my own creative genius. I hope everyone remembers the torkelsons, by the way. Forgetting the torkelsons is like forgetting 9/11. NOT OK.

Well, tonight is (was?) my last night in town before going back to san diego. It's kind of weird and I don't think it's hit me yet. If it had, I would be feeling a lot more nervous. You'd think after all these years of going back to school, I would be used to it by now. But I still get scared every time. I was hoping to do something out of the ordinary for my last night, and I was supposed to go to the fair. But Eddie, who was supposed to get us in for free, bailed (typical), so instead we just hung out around here. That was ok though, and maybe even better in a way.


I talked to Charlene on the phone earlier, and she told me two incredibly interesting things, but interesting in different ways.

1. Pat DA (the res dean) has been living in OUR apartment all summer while they renovate hers. Of all the apartments, she chooses ours. great. now it's gonna be like haunted by her spirit. Every time we even think about alcohol, a message in blood will appear on the wall or something, like "I know what's going on."

2. Hot Hot Heat is playing at fallfest! yessssss. Its gonna be such a fun show, I can't freaking wait. I had hoped they would pick someone good, so that it would add to my best October ever. A recap, in case I haven't rubbed it in enough:
Hot Hot Heat
Sufjan Stevens
The Decemberists
Bob Dylan

Charmander and I have been joking that the rest of our lives will pale in comparison to the month of october. It's gonna be like those people that can't get over highschool. Except instead of reliving the moment when we were asked to prom, it'll be the opening chords of Romulus. We'll have seen it all. We'll be past our prime. Over the hill. But I don't care. It's gonna be rad!

Hi.

I don't know if I'm actually going to use this.